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So, I havent been on here in a few weeks lol Oops. 
But, in these past few weeks I have figured out my loans and what not. I didnt sign up for food stamps cuz my dumb ass screwed that up and apparently you have to be 22 in order to file for yourself if ur living with someone. Which is retarded cuz 21 is adulthood. ugh. Anyways, I was able to fix up my loans without having to get on food stamps, thank god because I dont feel like dealing with welfare and all that bullshit. 

Another thing that happened is we got our cats!!! They are so fucking cute too! :3 We got a black and white fluffy kitty. She is mine (at least I hope she is a she.) and her name is Salem. My brother got the all black one and he decided to name him Armagedon. XD Army for short. Dont ask me why...My brother is very strange. If he had his way he would have named him MurderFace. smh lol

Lets see, what else.....Today is the 4th! I'm not quite looking forward to all the family coming over. Dont get me wrong, I love family get togethers but I swear if my aunt says anything about me giving up on massage I am going to go fucking insane. She makes so fucking sense. I confide in her one night that I want to do something that I am passionate about, and that happens to be writing. I want to be an author. It would be fucking amazing! So one day I am in a good mood, I'm writing and I decide to post on facebook that I want to be a writer. I dont want to do anything in the medical feild, ever, never, not even close to it. I mention that I dont mind if I have to get a second job while my writing picks up, thats okay, I dont care. But then the next time I go over she tells me that I need to stop boating on Facebook about the things I am doing that has nothing to do with adult things. She says that I am unmotivated to do anything but write fanfiction. She says that there is no money in writing fanfiction. Uhm, look bitch, you gotta start somewhere and I dont want to make money off of fanfiction. I have read plenty of romance novels and I know I can write one of my own with my own characters. She thinks that I shouldnt give up on massage and that I need to give it another go. Uhm, sorry, but its a bit too late for that. I was supposed to renew my licsence on my birthday and I never did that. I also dont feel like spending hundreds of dollars on continuing education classes every two years. Its ridiculous and I am not passionate about massage. 

Ugh, she fucking irritates me lol 

But, I think I am going to go to bed now. My dad finally passed out on the chair and I can go to bed now XD He spent like 3 hours showing me music vids from the 60's-70's. And now I am dead tired. 
When I wake I am going to post chapter 7 of Hurricane! So fear not readers!! :D
Night night!
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Just really hate it. 
Trying to apply for food stamps once again and now they want my dads info so that he can apply for me. Apparently if you are under 22 you cant apply for yourself if ur living with someone. Thats just retarded considering im 21 and considered an adult. What the hell kind of reasoning is that?

All I want is to get a deferment on one of my loans from school and the only way to do that is to get onto food stamps. I need to have this all done by tomorrow otherwise I am going to be charged over 300 on the loan for missing it. Ugh >.< 
I hate life sometimes. 
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Ugh..I went to text one of my friends "Shannon is awesome" and I fucking failed hard. 
It was sent straight to Shannon and she was sitting next to me watching tv with my dad. 

I have never felt more like a retard than I do tonight lol
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Before moving in with my dad and his girlfriend (possibly fiance lol) I knew that things were going to be so much less stressful, but I didnt really expect just how less stressful it was going to be. 

I'm sitting here working on chapter 7 of Hurricane and my dad gets up and pauses the television to go help Shannon's dad with something and she asks me if I am working on my story. Ive already told her a bit about it before when we first moved in. (Just not all the dirty details. However, one day I might end up allowing her to read it.) So she is asking me a bit more about it, like what am I going to do with it once its finished and how long its going to be. She is showing a real interest in it which is freakin amazing. I actually feel encouraged to continue writing which is something completely new to me. 

When I was living with my aunt and uncle, my aunt never showed interest in what I liked to do in my free time. In fact, there was a time about 6 months ago where I got all of my drawing stuff ready and I was going to finish a drawing I had started over at my Dad's. Well, as soon as I get to work my aunt bitches at me and basically tells me that if I spent as much time looking for a job as I do drawing then I would be working by then. She went on and on about it and I didnt draw a damned thing for a few weeks. The next time I tried to draw something I did it to test something out. I wanted to see if she was going to be a bitch again and sure enough she flipped the fuck out before I even put the pencil on the sheet of paper. Fucking bitches man, I swear...>>

It was so oppressive over there you have no idea. But here, I feel encouraged to do the things that I enjoy doing. I have people who are showing a legit interest in my hobby and I dont feel criticized anymore. I just, I dont know...lol Its a great feeling. 

If I ever do become a professional writer in my life time I think I would have to give some of the credit to Shannon because her general interest alone makes me feel great about what I do. 
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No seriously. I really do lol 
I have fanfiction to write and yet everything on the internet is distracting me from doing what I have to do. And this is chapter I'm currently writing is going to be a good one too!
Must.Get.Writing.Now
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